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A Moment Of Clarity - What Should I Do With My Life?

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I'm a journalism major. Right now I'm taking all the prerequisites and Ive discovered that I despise news writing. I don't like anything about it. The only reason I am sticking with it is because I can't wait to take magazine writing classes.

And then I get to thinking. Do I really want to be stuck with a shitty (although Im sure comfortable enough to live on) salary writing for someone else? Maybe at first.

Sometimes I'm hesitant and afraid to come out and say what I want because I'm afraid my goals or dreams are too far-fetched. I often fear I will never be able to accomplish them and I will live a life that Ive always feared, a life of poverty.

But you know what, today I had one of those rare moments of clarity. The kind of moment where you are just so fed up with the way things are going and you know there has got to be a better way. And it hits you suddenly that there are people in this world who know what they want. There are people in this world who have started with nothing but a dream and turned that dream into reality.

I'm going to be one of those people. And now I'm coming out.

I want to start up my own magazine. I don't want to work for anyone else. I want to work for myself. I want to be successful.

And god dammit, I'm going to make it happen.
I am no longer confused.
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Date:April 23rd, 2004 07:58 am (UTC)
Rock on.. what will you write about? Can I help? :)
Date:April 23rd, 2004 04:29 pm (UTC)
It's great to see someone with a firm, meaningful goal.

For me, the moment of clarity always stops half-way. I think, "Man, I don't want to do this!" but then I realize that the other half, the "I wanna do X instead!" is missing.
Date:April 23rd, 2004 05:02 pm (UTC)
Don't worry, I'm the same way.
I also really want to do the Peace Corps. So I don't know how it will all work out.
Date:April 28th, 2004 04:30 am (UTC)

Knowing What You Want


There are people in this world who know what they want....you said that. YOU are one of those people! Even when you don't know what you want and you feel like you are going crazy, there is still that strong part of you hanging around. It's there, really it is. It's just temporarily covered up by your fears and doubts about what you're doing.

Get as much education as you possibly can, and don't believe anyone that tries to tell you that you can't do it. Especially yourself.

So what if it goes slower than you'd like, or if it takes a diversion from the path!
For me, I knew lots of things I wanted, but all involved skills and college I didn't have. Stuff happened in my life that made it impossible for me to go to college when I was young. I'm going to do it NOW, at 49. Yea, I wish I'd been able to do what I really wanted a long time ago, but it didn't happen. What can ya do? Now I'm going to work towards a version of what I always wanted - and I'll get there when I get there - but I'll be working on it!!
If for some reason I don't get there - I will know that I never gave up! (well, maybe for a minute)
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